Jesus’

Life

Book 8

Max Seltmann

Recommended chronological reading list:

(with regard to Jesus’ life in flesh and Spirit, up to the time of the book of Revelation.  All books are written by Max Seltmann, unless otherwise indicated. The book marked with bold, is the book currently opened.)

1. Childhood years of Jesus (Jakob Lorber)

2. Book 1 – John the Baptist

3. Book 2 – John the Apostle in his youth with Jesus (Love overcomes Part 1)

4. Book 3 – Jesus’ Life

5. Book 4 – Jesus’ Life

6. Book 5 – Jesus’ Life

7. Book 6 – Jesus’ Life

8. Book 7 – Jesus’ Life

9. Book 8 – Jesus’ Life

10. Book 9 – Jesus prepares for His ministry Part 1

11. Book 10 – Jesus prepares for His ministry Part 2

12. Great Gospel of John, Volumes 1 – 10 (Jakob Lorber)

13. Great Gospel of John, Volume 11 (Leopoldt Engel)

14. Book 11 - Good Friday

15. Book 12 - Judas Iscariot in the beyond

16. Book 13 - On the road to Emmaus

17. Book 14 - The Risen One!

18. Book 15 - The New Life in man

19. Book 16 – At Bethany – story of Theophilus

20. Book 17 - Ascension

21. Book 18 - Pentecost!

22. Book 19 - Among the first Christians

23. Book 20 - Divine guidance of the first Christians

24. Book 21 - The chamberlain from the Orient

25. Book 22 - The God-spark and Saul's conversion

26. Book 23 - Awakening the Divine life

27. Book 24 - Experiences with Jacob, Part 1

28. Book 25 - Experiences with Jacob, Part 2

29. Book 26 - Experiences with Jacob, Part 3

30. Book 27 - Experiences with Jacob, Part 4

31. Book 28 - Naeme

32. Book 29 - John the Apostle as a guide (Love overcomes Part 2)

33. Book 30 - John the Apostle as a guide (Love overcomes Part 3)

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Table of Contents

1.  Jesus and Nathan 4

2.  Joseph in the beyond 9

3.  Nathan as friend 10

4.  Jesus as Healer and Friend of children 12

5.  Gabriel’s message 15

6.  The inner call 17

7.  Jesus announces His departure 18

8.  Nathan looks into his inner world 19

9.  From Jesus' Inner World 21

10.  Consecration on the hill 25

Jesus and Nathan

The departure of the old Joseph had not caused any great changes in the house, since the eldest son Joel - according to agreements with his aged father - took over the business and the management of the house.  Mary continued to take care of the household, and the kitchen and house were kept in the greatest order.  But while Joseph, as the father of the house, had also assumed responsibility in matters of eternity, and all the sons complied willingly with his instructions - with the exception of Jesus, who served God according to His ways - this relationship now changed significantly, for Jacob and the mother Mary now adhered to Jesus.

"Greetings, Brother Joel!"  With these words, Nathan - an elder from Nazareth - enters Joel's workshop and continues reprovingly: “You are now becoming quite rare in the synagogue!  Nor do you seem to be in need of comfort, for it is observed that you do not visit your father's burial place.  Do you no longer know what you owe to the service of Jehovah?"

"Brother Nathan" - Joel answered calmly - "from your point of view as a priest, your question to me may be justified, and so I will answer you: our father, as also an elder, used to worship and pray here in the house, and no priest reproached us for it.  I took over the house with everything, so also the rights; and even if I am not an elder in the congregation, I am one now in the house of Joseph.  Our service has always given us what we needed, so I am surprised that you of all people, who were in such agreement with our father, now see a flaw in our house-rules!"

“Brother Joel, it amazes you that I am coming to you; but do you not realize that all Nazareth is amazed at you?  First of all, I want to talk to you about your brother Jesus, because he is worse than a Gentile.  With Joseph we have excused many things in his weakness toward Jesus; but you need not have any regard for him, since Jesus is the son of a second marriage."

“It is because of Jesus that you come to me?" asks Joel, amazed.

"Yes, years ago we heard your complaints about Jesus.  For days and nights you worried and prayed that Jehovah would help, and now not even a synagogue applies to you! We know that Jesus attends a service; and while you are having your home devotions, he is going other ways."

"Yes, why don't you talk to Jesus Himself?" asks Joel - "see, here He comes!"

Jesus enters, greets, and wants to go to his workbench.  Joel approaches him and says: "Jesus!  Nathan is complaining about us, especially about you, if you like, you can talk it over with him."

"Yes, I have come to lodge a complaint" - Nathan speaks eagerly - "you are never seen at worship, the morning and evening devotions in the house do not suit you, and in the meantime you go lonely and perhaps forbidden ways."

Jesus replies: "Are these all the troubles you have because of Me, or is something else driving you?  You complain that we, by which you mean Me and My Mother, no longer come to you.  But have you ever asked yourself whether the synagogue also satisfies us?  My mother would gladly go to the service, but as far as I am concerned, I have never been satisfied there!"

"Jesus!  You say this to me?  To an anointed one you say, our worship does not closely satisfy!  Remember, I am over seventy years old, and you not yet thirty.  Oh shame to experience this with you!"

"Shame do you call it, when I, as one considerably younger in years, freely and openly confess My opinion to you?  Be glad that I do not expose your shame; for that you have kept an eye on My mother since Joseph is no more, can be proved to you!  And only for this reason, Nathan, mother can never come to you again, since she has also recognized you.  But I serve God in My way, and this gives Me more than your synagogue."

Nathan gets excited: "So!  I come to inquire about your salvation and receive such an answer from you that I do not know what to say to it?   Look, I am in holy earnest about you!"

Jesus speaks reassuringly: "Listen, My friend, I am sorry; but also towards you I cannot change My nature and want to tell you today that the dreamer Jesus, the eccentric, is more dangerous than he looks!  And therefore do not be frightened, because you have to experience it once.  I feel in Me the calling: to enlighten the people about their true God and His eternal kingdom!  But you have destroyed all good, true faith in God and the Lord of hosts by your hypocrisy and the privileges the temple enjoys.  Only you shall still be believed in.  Only you are the "chosen and anointed ones" and let the people pine for the truth about God and true worship.  You can wield the scourge unconscionably, you can make laws and impose enormous tax burdens on the people, and at the same time proclaim: This is the will of God, because of your unbelief!  But you are wrong!  You have not reckoned with God!  I could prove to you from the Scriptures all your wrong being and doing, but you are also clever enough to gloss over your doing with other passages of the Scriptures.  That is why God has sent Me into your dark night and world, to illuminate like a burst of fire all your wrongdoings and life.  Whoever now wants to take this light of Mine into himself and starts to do according to it, he will realize that everything I testify is not from Me, but from God.  But whoever wants to take offence at Me before the time, will burn himself at this light!"

"Oh - I shall not be angry at this, you youth who seeks no fellowship with his brothers of tribe and faith, who associates more with the Romans, the pagans and the ungodly than with his own brothers!  But you are not the first whom the temple will change his mind!  Fie, shame on you and on your father's house, to bring up such misery!"

Seriously, Jesus says: "Nathan!  Who gives you the right to revile Me and the house of Joseph like this?  You may have the right to inquire about all the circumstances here in the house of Joseph; but to revile us is beyond your authority!  Therefore take back this ugly word, lest you be the first to burn yourself on Me!"

"What, you big talker and fantasist want to threaten me?"

"Nathan.  Zeal is good, but over-zealousness does harm!  You may insult Me, I forgive you, because you do not know what you do with it.  But, lest you do greater harm, stand here and be silent until you take back the insult from the house of Joseph!"  Quietly, Jesus went back into the house.  Joel, however, stayed and continued to work.

Nathan wanted to flare up; but his hands and feet became as heavy as iron.  He wanted to shout, to scream, but he could not make a sound.  Inwardly he struggled vigorously against this condition, but he remained powerless - defenceless.

When Jesus meets His mother in the house, He says: "Mother, over there is the first one who wanted to stand in My way to deny Me what My innermost urges Me to do!  But he insulted not only Me, but our whole house, and now I give him the opportunity to see his wrong and make amends!"

"Jesus! - Be wise!  Do not stretch the bow too tight!  For it is easier to inflict a wrong than to do a good!  Certainly, I believe in You, believe in Your mission, - but temper yourself, for even in You there is still unrest and struggle."

Mother!  You dear, good woman!  Your love is heavenly good and becomes a blessing to the earth!  But love must not become foolishness either.  Believe Me, I see through this Pharisee!  His inside is now still full of anger and hatred, but he will change!"

"Jesus!  Perhaps another solution would be possible after all; for the temple is and remains the house of Jehovah.  And how did You once say when we sought You and found You in the temple: 'Do you not know that I must be in My Father's house!'  My Jesus, is there no other way - than the one You set before Yourself?"

"Mother!  You still speak and think very humanly.  But I seek to realize the Divine, not the human.  If I would deviate only one inch from the high goal set for Me, then all My struggle would have been useless and the fate of all mankind would have been sealed!  Understand Me further and have also patience!"

"Certainly, my Jesus!  I want to understand You completely, I want to serve You with all My motherly love, and I want to spare You any disappointment."

Mother, if you want to understand Me, then you must also walk with Me inwardly.  No longer look at people or their institutions, but become completely sure, completely aware of yourself.  Only then will every barrier have fallen that still separates us inwardly from the heavenly Father!  Do you believe, dearest Mother, that I would be entirely your son if I had not become God's Son first?  You ask: How is it that you are not the Son of God any more?

Behold, I am, because I am out of God!  But I want to be it out of Myself!  And by accomplishing, through the utmost faithfulness and rarest devotion, in constant obedience to the voice of God within, all that is necessary for My perfection, I, as a man, become His Son, and thereby show all people the way to become also a true child of God!"

"Oh my Jesus!  If I did not know long ago what You want, I would go crazy about You!  But tell me: When will You be ready?  When will You begin Your great work?  It is so beautiful among us now!  We miss nothing, not even our father Joseph; but will it stay like this?  It is so hard for me to keep all worries about you away from me; every now and then they are there!"

"Oh My mother!  I cannot tell you when and how the call will go out to Me!  And it is also good so, because I can still test Myself daily, whether I am truly one with the Father.  As I find peace in the thought: "My hour has not yet come", so you must also comfort yourself.  All of you will one day be amply compensated for having helped Me to attain this maturity: to be truly out of Myself - the Son of God!"

In the meantime, Joel, based on earlier experiences, did not pay any further attention to Nathan and quietly continued his work.  Now Jacob comes into the workshop with the tools of his trade, sees Nathan and greets him in the manner of the Jews; in doing so, he notices Nathan's character, and only now looks at him more closely.  Nathan is inwardly excited, but can say nothing.  Then Jacob asks: "What has happened to you, Nathan, since you are so dumb and yet so excited inside; can I assist you?"

"No!" says Joel sternly to Jacob - "he has accused Jesus and insulted us all, and now he is to remain mute and silent until he wants to take back this insult!"

"Oh, Jesus can wait a long time on that, for Nathan is unforgiving!  But could we not ask Jesus to put an end to this state of affairs?" And meeting Jesus at the mother's, Jacob immediately says: "Oh Jesus, I ask You to give this Templar his liberty, for he looks pitiful!"

“Dear Jacob, are you moved only by his appearance?" -  Jesus answers - "it would be more correct if you would let yourself be moved by his inner state, because it would show you a different picture.  Nothing is done to him; this lesson should only be useful to him, not harmful.  May he finally recognize that I am no longer the silent Jesus!  For it is Nathan who has most brought Me into the reputation of a dreamer and a mama's boy."

"But Jesus!  Do you want to repay like with like?  If someone came now and saw Nathan, he would have to assume that Nathan was no longer in his right mind."

"Do not worry about My actions, My Jacob!  You should know your Jesus and that it is not possible for Me to repay like with like here.  It could only be a true love, which I would like to repay.  Let us therefore let things take their course."

"Jesus!  Maybe I could help him, if You allow it?  I would like to try to make him change his mind."

"Brother Jacob!  Your good heart and good will is honorable.  I do not forbid you.  But remember: this is not about Me, it is about the inner truth, and that where I begin a work, I also want to complete it!  Soon, soon the time will come when I can say to you: Do this! or: Do that!" (not yet) -

"Dearest Jesus!  When will the time come?" - Jacob asks openly - "I too long for the day and the hour when all the glory slumbering in You will be revealed!  Nothing will stop me then to stand completely on Your side, because You intend the happiness of mankind!"

"Let it go, brother!"  Jesus rebuffs.  "And you, Mother, feed us; the change will be here soon!"

"And Nathan?" asks Mary anxiously.

"Let him remain standing until he has made up his mind to ask forgiveness of us, and especially of you!"

"Jesus!  Is this Your unchangeable will?  Will You not be dealt with?"

"Mary, there is only one will that I acknowledge, and it is God's will" - Jesus says seriously - "God does not allow Himself to be bargained with, He is determined in everything!  Or do you think that it was something undetermined, since the arch-father Abraham negotiated with God because of Sodom and Gomorrah?  Be assured, if Abraham had known that there were only five righteous people in those cities, he would have said: "For the sake of these five - I ask You to have mercy". (1 Moses 18:22-33) But Abraham himself was in doubt whether there was only one in it, and so God only wanted to test Abraham's love, and his faith.  You can search the whole history of the ancient Jewish people and everywhere you will find: God is determined in everything He does and does not do.  My way is clear and full of light.  For in Me lives now the certainty: Everything I want, will succeed - because all powers are at My command!  And so I also say to you: Do not stop Me!  I know what I must do!  No power of earth nor of hell can make Me waver therein, for in Me is God, and His powers are Mine!"

Mary is frightened, because Jesus has not spoken so seriously for a long time.

Now the sons come to eat, and Joel tells them: "Listen, brothers, against us it is complained that we attend the service too little!  Nathan, who brought this to us and also offended our house, is now standing over in the workshop and cannot move from the spot, since Jesus gave him a sample of His power to taste!  But I beg you all cordially: Let nothing be said about what is said about us, but meet all with love and complaisance."

Jacob says: "Brothers!  Joel is right!  Only to remain in peace and in love is the best protection against the wickedness of the people.  But we know Who is in our midst, and therefore need not fear the world!  Let us be careful not to let anything of this be known, for by doing so we would make the work more difficult for our brother Jesus!  Since Father is no more, double blessing is upon us!  I am of the opinion that Jesus will now pursue His inner calling more and more, and we want to contribute to the completion of His work.

"My dear Jacob" -  Jesus speaks seriously - "leave these speeches!  For I do only what I want and must!  Only you shall all be quiet about Me, then no man and also no Templar will dare to approach you.  But if you are not wise in this, then the enemy of all love and truth becomes prematurely attentive to us, then I have all the more trouble to wrestle and fight, since I not only feel, but also see all invisible enemies!  How often you wonder about My being alone.  'Jesus goes to pray' - you say, but you cannot understand that only in prayer and in inner silence the growing into God is possible!  If I had omitted this, I would not be so close to the goal and would not yet see so clearly the tasks that still await Me."

Mary, however, cannot remain calm while eating, because she cannot get the Templar out of her mind. Jesus said to her: "Mother!  Be patient only for a short time; soon it will be so far that he can move again!  Only for a short time I will still stay among you!  Soon the Father will call Me to work, to fulfillment!  Then I leave you and go where 'My Father needs Me!"

"Jesus!  Don't leave us!"  cries Joel, frightened.  "We owe so much good to Your love, and how many wrongs we have often done to You.  Oh, if only our father Joseph were with us!"

"Brothers!  Your father Joseph knows about everything even now, and his love is always trying to keep everything away from you that could harm you.  And exactly today I want to give you a proof of it, as a sign of the great grace and glory of God, because you have also matured!  But now all of you be quiet, inwardly very quiet!”

Joseph in the beyond

A light glow is reflected around the objects in the parlour, then before their eyes, the walls also disappear and everyone finds themselves in a wonderful garden.  Palm trees as tall as houses and fruit trees, heavily laden with ripe, fragrant fruits, spread their branches and give a blissful shade, which, however, does not cool, but warms.  Under these trees sit many pure, angelic beings, enjoying of the sweet fruits.   Joseph, as the owner and master of this garden, shows no trace of age or weariness, but joyfully and lively he compels his guests to join in.

One of them now speaks: "Brother in the Lord!  A great, mighty question occupies us and we hope that we will find the solution with you.  You are from the earth.  You have experienced the greatest act of grace that any mortal being could ever experience, and so we ask you: Don't you have a great longing to return to earth, because the Lord does not dwell here, but on earth?  We cannot imagine that you, who carried the Lord in your arms, can be happy now that you are far from Him!"

"Oh, dear ones" -  Joseph answers with a smile - "don't you see that I am completely happy here?  For what you imagine as bliss, was only a preliminary stage for me.  You forget that I may have carried the Lord of eternity to eternity in my arms, but not in my heart!  But now He lives in me, and I live in Him!  This is greater than all conceivable blessedness on earth!  For what are all creatures, what are all beings without Him?  Nothing!  His breath can blow away everything!  What are you in your world?  A nothing, despite all wisdom and reason!  For only a breath of Him and everything can cease!  But he who strives to carry God and His life in himself, creates and forms with forces out of God, and nothing can ever destroy anything of these works!  Behold this my world with it's gardens!  They extend into all infinity and could nourish not only all people of this earth of mine, but also all beings of your world.  See, as I once endeavoured as an earthling to fulfill everything in the law as far as it was at all possible for me, so not only the consciousness grew in me: I serve God, but also: God also serves me.  And with that, also my abilities grew more and more to serve the eternal-immortal!  And in it I live now also here!  Should ever the wish or the longing arise in me: "Oh could I be once again with my loved ones on earth", such wish is also already fulfilled, as soon as the longing has reached the right degree!  But my Lord, the glorious and holy God - I carry in me as a living memory!  And should His work, intended since eternities, once be completed, then He will be personally everywhere where love has reached the most perfect degree!"

The glorious spirits listened to Joseph's speech in amazement; then an angel approached and said to Joseph: "Brother in the Lord!  Also your children were allowed to enjoy your love today!  And soon the time will come when the Lord will begin His work visibly and audibly to all!"

Slowly, Mary and the brothers again come out of this spiritual experience.  Then Jesus says: "Brothers!  Are you now convinced that our father Joseph can participate in everything here?  Just like you, he is also informed about My plan; and he also contributes spiritually to the success of My work!  But now be still for a while, for Nathan has overcome - and is coming."

Nathan as friend

The door opens - and - "Thank God that you are here, because I want to ask forgiveness from all of you, including you, Jesus!" - says Nathan, who enters and reaches out his hand to Jesus and Mary.  "I have acted badly toward you and now I see my wrong!  Forgive me, and bear me no grudge, but keep silent before everyone!"

"Dear Nathan" - says Jesus - "it is right of you to come and ask for forgiveness.  There is nothing I like better than to forgive!  And if you had done a hundred times worse to Me and to the house of Joseph, I would forgive you if you asked forgiveness from the depth of your heart."

"Thank you for this word!  But also have patience; for I have grown great and old in the wrong spirit!  But may I also believe you have forgiven me all things?"

"Believe it!" - says Jesus - "and to prove it, come sit down at the table and partake of our simple meal."

"What, even this? Oh, how we have misjudged you.  You reward wickedness with love?"

"Ask not, Nathan!  It is the greatest happiness of the Son of Man when a stray sees his error!  But if you also want to be happy, seek to heal the erring from the false and wrong delusion, and God will reward you publicly!  The time has come when God reveals Himself to us and wants to reveal Himself even further; and there God cannot first ask the temple and it's servants: ‘May I?’  There is a holy breeze about this Spirit!  Therefore, if you want to become truly happy, know your true, your innermost self!  For God sees only into the heart and will never direct Himself according to the people."

“Jesus!  You speak as if you know God better than I do!  I have experienced a sample of your power and do not want to spoil it with you a second time; but what you tell here is too incredible for me!  For I too know the history of the people of Israel and have read of many a 'revelation of God' in Moses and the prophets!  But where you get this power, is inexplicable to me and also your belief about God's revelations!”

"Nathan, eat and drink first at our table" - says Jesus - "so that hospitality can be satisfied!  About everything else we will talk later, since I do not want to impose anything on you!  I only want to achieve one thing: that you give up all enmity, which made you so bitter against the house of Joseph!  Be our friend, as you were the friend of Joseph!  Then you will overcome all base passions, and we will rejoice when you come to stay with us.  Of course, you must not think of Me as working from foreign or even evil forces, for then you are distancing yourself from Me and My essence!"

"Jesus, Jesus!  You human enigma!" - cries Nathan - "once overflowing with love, then again full of secret powers!  Over in the workshop the punisher and here the pure opposite!  What is real about you?  Were I not so well acquainted with your parents and brothers, I should suppose you to bear within you two natures!"

"Nathan!  Never yet could anyone accuse Me of not having extended love to him!  And whatever extraordinary thing happened in our family, was only for My sake.  But if you suppose that in Me there are two natures, I tell you, you are greatly mistaken!  My inside is also My outside!  But with you, as with all changeable people, the inside is completely different from the outside!”

"What do you mean by this?  Here I don't understand you at all!" - says Nathan.

"Because you do not want to understand Me!" - answers Jesus.  "For a man who acts otherwise than he thinks and speaks, is of a double nature, since his inward is the opposite of what he puts outward.  But if a man strives to be honest in order to truly put his inner being outward, he has overcome the outer man and has become 'one' with his inner being!  This has been My struggle until today.  And when I have wrestled with Myself in holy earnestness, you have laughed at the dreamer and the fantasist.  But now comes the effect of this My becoming one in Me!  I will leave Nazareth and only one day they will recognize what they have missed in Me!  For who are My friends except My brothers?

Romans, dark pagans, but better people for it, to whom it was easy to recognize My good, honest will.  But all of you, and the Templars most of all, had only mockery for Me.  Behold, if you think that I want to convert you to My view, you are mistaken again!  For only this I want to achieve, that you remain the old friend of the house and prove your friendship when I am no longer here.  For I will be hated, persecuted and ostracised by the temple; but this shall be only for Me!  See to it then that the hatred does not pass to My mother and brothers!"

"Jesus, this I will promise you!  But how is it that you flee from the temple, and are afraid of it?  Do You, as You say, carry powers within You to overcome everything, why don't You try them on the temple and it's servants?  Here again I must doubt, and must tell You, You do not behave like one who intends great things!"

"Nathan, if you knew Me, you would know that I am not capable of fear.  For 'The Father', who is in Me, has given all power to Me!  But I am not called to transform the temple, but as a true man to testify of the eternal, true life of God within and to shine from the light, which is God as the Eternal Love Himself!  But you are indifferent to this, otherwise you would have been able to talk about it with Joseph many times.

Jesus as Healer and Friend of children

The brothers now go back to their work.  Suddenly, things come to life in the courtyard.  The door is opened hastily - a woman, followed by two crying children, rushes to Mary and asks with loud words for help; because the widow from the neighboring land has fallen and apparently broken a leg.

Mary is about to leave, but Jesus says: "Mother, stay here with the neighbor and the children.  Nathan is a doctor, and I will go with him."

Nathan, astonished, asks: "What do you want with me?"

"My Nathan, I go with you - " Jesus answers - "because I want to show that I also have compassion!"

Wordlessly, they both leave.  Soon they reach the house and see as soon as they enter, that the woman is really in great pain.   When Nathan wants to examine her, she moans even louder.  Jesus said: "You are causing her more pain than necessary!  Come, and let Me touch the fracture."

"You?  You are a carpenter and not a doctor!"

"Even as a carpenter you can be a doctor!" replies Jesus, pushing him aside.  Then Jesus stretches out both hands and blesses the woman; kneeling down, He gently lays His hands on the fracture and immediately her weeping stops and - after a few minutes, everything is healed!  Now He leads the healed woman to her bed and says: "So Ada, now lie still and thank your God, Who has healed you, from the bottom of your heart!  In the future, however, hurry with care!"

Nathan and Ada look at Jesus without understanding.  But he says: "Believe My words and give glory to God!  For God can help only there, where He is approached with faith!"  Then He turns to go.  He is followed by the astonished Nathan, who finally speaks:  "Jesus! What was that again?  You become more and more mysterious to me!  For the woman was doomed to death; the gangrene had already set in."

"Yes, Nathan, quick help was needed here!  But I wanted to prove to you that a man, if he becomes one with God, also has the powers that he has received from God.  Basically, only God helped here, and I gave My will to it, trusting in His help!"

"So you could also help others - including me?" - asks Nathan.

"Certainly!  If you could believe that not I, but God in Me would help you, you too would be able to experience God's goodness and help."

"Jesus, Jesus! Whoever can do it, I can't do it!  This is too much for me, old man!  Therefore forgive me, I must go home, or I will become a fool!"

"Go confidently, but do not forget to come back!  For the time may come when you will seek Me in vain!"

They separate - Jesus pondering, but Nathan driven by the spirit of restlessness!

Jesus goes home.  In the meantime, Mary had succeeded in calming the children and sending the neighbor home.  She now looks at Jesus and immediately knew: God has again graciously helped! "I guess it wasn't that bad?" she asked.

"It was even worse!  And without help, both children would have become orphans!  But again My wish was fulfilled: God gave, and I was the servant".  Jesus now told everything, but quietly, so that the two children would not know the truth!

Mary held her hands over her throbbing heart and asked: "Oh Jesus!  What would have become if Your help had not come?"

"Oh mother!  You would have had two more children!  And surely it would not have been difficult for you to stand in for them in their mother's place, too."

"Where is Nathan then?  Did he still stay there?"

"No, he went home!  But he will find no rest, for I have become a great mystery to him!"

"Oh Jesus, why are You so hard to understand, just why?  After all, it was the same for us, and how did we suffer from it?  You see, these questions keep coming."

“My Mother" -  Jesus answers gently - "I want to ask you: Why are you so difficultly accessable for the Spirit of all life?  How brightly all life shows and announces itself to Me, for I have penetrated through every 'why'!  But it would be the greatest blessing for you, if you would put all questions, all doubts far behind you and put trust in their place.  What gave Me this strength in the struggle?  My trust!  Not in Myself, no, but in My God and also in your God, who lives in Me and I through Him!  Here lies My foundation, and on this I built!  Moses already recognized it.  This ground of trust in God is holy ground, so it has become a thousand times more light in Me!  But as long as this ground, no matter how holy it is, does not become your own, you must fear to lose it!  God, the Eternal, is My true reason for living, and I feel His power and might more and more in Me!  And His glory fills Me so fullly with light that I want to live only according to the will and wishes of My God!  Oh Mary!  Oh woman and mother!  For this My holy being and life you all still lack the right understanding!"

"But Jesus, do we still not understand You?" - asks Mary, startled.  "How often You rejoiced because we understand You, and today You say this again?  Today You are truly incomprehensible!"

"Yes, Mother!  This had to be said, because you are still much too busy with My person!   And this is just the detour!  You must occupy yourselves only with the Spirit in Me, only then many things about Me will become clear to you.  Today you have seen the old father Joseph in the hereafter!  But do you believe that he is still attached to the old law and the prophets?  Oh no!  His inner spirit, which he also brought to life under heavy sacrifices, created his glorious world for him!  And this spirit is the eternal Spirit of God, and this lies as a spark also in all of you.

"Jesus!  When You speak so convincingly, it says in me: Yes, You are right!  But when I am alone again, the way seems too long until I also reach this goal!"

Then the door opens and Ada, the healed one, enters.  Her two children jump towards her and pull her towards the mother Mary.

But Ada, moved, says: "Oh good Jesus!  What a blessing you have done me!  For the pain I endured was terrible!  Show me your hands just once, for no hand has ever touched me so gently and so tenderly, and all pain was immediately relieved."

"Oh woman, what have I done?"  Jesus deflects.  "It always depends in everything that you do not lose yourself and look at these things with the right eyes!  Give thanks to God, and give Him the glory. Everything else is evil!  See, your haste and the fretting you had done had robbed you of all prudence; and so it could not be otherwise: you fell!  But God does not send suffering to torment, but only allows suffering to test!  Get the best out of this, and you will only praise the Lord God and thank Him!"

Now the brothers also come, for they too had heard of the misfortune, and Jacob says: "I would not be surprised if a great happiness still come out of it for Ada!  In fact, Jesus never went to any sick person; only when He met those who were suffering on the way, He had wonderful comfort for them and words of love."

The neighbor now takes her children and is about to say goodbye, when Mary says: "Ada, do not forget the words of our Jesus and come again!"

"I shall never forget the service of love you have done me today" - she says to Jesus - "and I shall remember your hands all the days of my life, for from them flowed strength and balm!"

"Go with God!  Begin all things only in His holy name, and be blessed now and evermore!"  replies Jesus.

But the little girl presses herself against Jesus and says: "You, dear, good Jesus, have made my mother well!  I will love you always for that!  And when I pray to God, I will ask Him that You may heal others also!"

"Do this, My little Leah, and keep Me quite dear, for I also love you; and so you can also visit Me more often, but you must first always ask your mother."

Little Leah snuggles up to Jesus, while the boy stood aside, not having the courage to do so.  Now the widow goes back to her home with her children with a grateful heart; but in her heart, there is a great foreboding: Jesus is more than an ordinary man!

Gabriel’s message

In Joseph's house, the brothers were still discussing the case.  Jesus, however, went out quietly, directed His steps to a hill and there, as always, kept His devotion.  His thoughts wandered into the past - and after a while - into the future.

"Oh Father, You Love of love!  You Being, from whom all happiness originates!  Again I am united with You in Me!  Oh You Love!  You holy Life!  When will You call [Me] to action?  Hot inner desire occupies My being - and I want to serve You entirely, only serve, serve!"

Jesus is alone.  Around Him it becomes quiet and holy peace is also in Him.  From far away still the call of an owl sounds and the night quickly comes.  A clear night, and the starry sky stands in the most beautiful radiance.  A shooting star detaches itself and circles a part of the worldly space.  Jesus, however, hardly turns His gaze there, because He looks at the area and the starry sky from the inside.

There stands a shining figure before Him, bowing low and saying: "Lord!  Lord!  In the great space of the world, a new wind, a holy blowing can be felt, and all beings are filled with the desire to know in truth from where this wind comes!  We know that You are on earth!  We know that it is Your holy will to keep silent about it!  But Lord!  Lord!  Now we can no longer keep silent, for Your inner Being shines on this earth like a sun!  Oh Lord!  Why remain silent any longer?  Why may we not - like You - work and help?"

"My brother, you My herald!  You were the first to announce My coming, and with joy your heart shone like a noonday sun!  All the blessed and all who were on the best way to become so, rejoiced, exulted and believed that this was the greatest glory.   But He, to Whom all rejoicing and joy was directed, completely veiled Himself in humanity and the joy cooled down!  But now they lived in the hope that all the glories would be revealed one day.  Faithfully you all perform your service and not even one of you deserves a rebuke.  But, My dear Gabriel, the time has not yet come!  As you all wait for the call of God, which is well known to you, so I also wait!  And again and again it is to be checked whether also everything, even the very least in Me, is truly newly spiritualized!"

"Lord!  Lord!" - says Gabriel - "we, as Your most faithful servants, sometimes stood near You, where You opposed all the forces within You to the base.  We were only allowed to watch, were only allowed to plead within ourselves: 'Oh Lord, let us help You!'  But Your will did not give us consent!  The enemy of all life has thus also troubled us; but in no single case could he make us waver.  Now another state has come, for everything human obeys Your will!  And in all heavenly spheres every inhabitant feels: 'Oh earth, now the time is fulfilled where you as the smallest creation deserves the greatest attention.'  For all is of hope: The Lord now loosens the curse that clings to all creation; and You, as Jesus, are moved to the centre-point!"

"Certainly, My brother" -  Jesus answers seriously - "all this is right and true.  But remember, only those fruits last which are truly mature!  Oh, it is far from that.  It still requires much struggle, much faithfulness and humble devotion!  But one thing I tell you today: Proclaim in all worlds: ‘The work of salvation has entered the final stage!  No longer will the Son of Man mysteriously hide everything, but it shall be revealed: God has become man!  And everything human is thereby enabled to divinize everything in itself!’  Now it is still necessary to complete what has been wrested victoriously from the enemy of all life.  So now continue to do your service in the old willingness to sacrifice!"

The angel bows deeply - and Jesus is alone again.

The inner call

Then Jesus goes home, where Mary is still working.  When He enters, she looks up; but Jesus goes to her and says: "Mother!  Now I am at the goal!  And I will not stay much longer in the house with you and the brothers.  You know what is at stake.  I must not let the call go unheard, for all at once, everything is clear to Me!  What was still dark today in the day, has now become full of light in Me!  Now I am connected with you and can no longer separate from you, although I could be physically miles away.   Oh Mary, if you could feel the joy in Me, you would say: 'Jesus, why do You still stay in Nazareth?'  And I would have to answer you: Only a short time,  since I do not take a step without the deeply recognized holy will of God!  What I have done and worked until today, I actually did out of Myself, because I saw God's goals shining, but as if they were outside of Me.  My whole struggle and fight was aimed at the lower, the human, since it opposed the Divine in Me.  The final fight was easy and not to be compared with the beginning.  For now I no longer work, but the Father - or God - now works in Me!  This has come so clearly to My consciousness today."

"Jesus!" - cries Mary - "is this sacred truth, or could You not be mistaken?"

"Woman!  Why won't you believe Me?" - Jesus replies to her - "Why are you the first to doubt such words of Mine?  Remember: Every man can err, but not God!  And God now dwells in Me!  And now let us go to rest."

But Mary could not find sleep, for now what had long been anticipated, had become fact: Jesus ceases to be her Son and now stands so significantly above her!  Where and how will He begin His work?  Then she finally fell asleep - and quickly the night passed.

Jesus announces His departure

Everyone is up early, and Mary is preparing the morning meal.  Jacob goes to her and says: "Mary!  Jesus has not gone to bed again today; where may He have gone?"

"Jacob, let go all worry about Jesus!" - Mary answers - "He is our salvation, as you have long known; and tonight He announced to me: ‘Now I am at the goal!’  Ah, Jacob, if we were also so far, then all worry and all struggling within us would have an end."

Jesus enters.  He kindly greets His mother and brothers and turning to Mary, He says: "Mary!  Leave all worries already far behind you!  For God can only reveal Himself in His glory where true childlike trust is placed in Him!  Believe Me, and all heavens are ready to serve you."

"Jesus, take the burden from my heart, for I am still Your mother."

"Which you will remain!"  Jesus answers full of love - "Do not stumble at anything, for I am human and your Son!  But My inner Spirit is God from eternity to eternity!  Therefore, abide in pure love and we are one!"

Now all sit down to the morning meal; Joel starts the praise song and all sing along, only Jesus is silent.  After the singing is finished, everyone eats in silence; then Joel gets up and asks: "Jesus, are you coming with us today?  There is much work to be done, and I want to be finished by sundown!"

"Joel, My brother!  Let us celebrate today and tomorrow!  Your work is finished, for I wanted it so!  Who knows when we will be together again so united?  Nathan has no rest and soon he will be here.  Then you too shall all witness God's great goodness and glory."

"Jesus, you dear brother" - Joel says with emotion - "have we not experienced enough glory?  Yes, we have long suspected Your departure, since You are now so much more joyful and free.  But since we are all still sitting at the table, I ask you in the name of all the brothers: Jesus!  As we have not stood by You in Your struggle, as we have so often failed to understand You, and as we have hurt You, forgive us our weakness and keep us dear as Your brothers.”

"My Joel and you brothers!  There is no need for this request.  Remain faithful and true in all humility; and let the Spirit of love rule over all your activities!  Then we are one and faithfully united in and through the Father's love, and you are and remain My brothers here as well as in eternity!"

Nathan looks into his inner world

As Jesus said, Nathan came and asked to be excused for coming at such an early hour, because: "Jesus and you, listen, I have no peace and do not know where is out nor in!  It is a miserable condition since yesterday in me, and I may think how I want, I come to no clarity.  Pleadingly I turned to Jehovah; but instead of being calmer, I became restless myself.  Wearily I tossed and turned on my bed.  And when at last I fell asleep, I had a strange dream, which made me even more restless when I awoke."

Jesus speaks: "But Nathan!  Surely you, as a priest, should be able to handle yourself and show us a better picture of yourself!  For you know that counsel of man is seldom of any use."

"Yes, Jesus!  You may be right; but you are, after all, the cause of my unrest!  Shall I tell you the dream?"

"You may tell it, for the brethren's sake; for I know your dream" - Jesus answers.

"What - you know it?  How can you know it?"

"Nathan, if I want - nothing is hidden from Me!"

Nathan is astonished and then relates: "I sought sleep and forgetfulness with great difficulty, because I could not forget that my shame and disgrace had been revealed.

Generously you, and above all you, Jesus, reached out to me and renewed the old, but so long existing covenant of friendship.  I have thought and acted meanly and lowly, and have repaid love with envy and hatred!  I did not want to think that You, Jesus, had seen through me - and could prove this by facts!  Finally I fell asleep and had a very vivid dream:

I am the owner of a large property, have many people, a lot of cattle and large fields.  I go out and visit the stables.  The cattle are roaring, they have no food!  I look for the people to send them to feed; there they lean idly and say: 'Nathan, we have no more fodder!  Everything in the field has already been harvested.  We have no bread either; and the grain is all gone; create something else!'  What?  I cry out in horror - no fodder for the cattle and no bread for us?  There is no such thing!  'See for yourself!' - is their answer.  I hurry out to the field.  No grass, no green fodder - everything had been harvested and nothing had grown back, since it had not rained for weeks.  I go to the grain fields.  The harvest is as high as a man, but when I get closer, there are no ears on the stalks.  I hurry to the other fields - also here, no ears!  Then I sink down and break down, weeping bitterly.  Now you come, Jesus, and ask: 'Nathan, what have you lost, since you weep so bitterly?'  And I say, Behold, there are the fields in glorious splendor, but without ears of corn.  What shall become?  For now not only bread is lacking, but also the seed.  Then you say: 'Here also God cannot help you, since you see here only the fruit of your sowing.'  I awake and, oh terror, Your words resound: 'What you see is the fruit of your sowing!'  Oh Jesus!  What does all this mean?  Give me back my rest!"

"Nathan, I cannot return your peace to you, since I did not take it from you.  No-one can return to you what he did not receive or take from you before.  But it is a special circumstance that led you into this struggle and this is: God, the Eternal, is gracious to you; He has thwarted your will!  Through this dream, He showed you your inner world.  If you would die now, you would experience the same in your world - with the only difference: From this dream there was still an awakening for you.  But there, in the beyond, your state would be able to last for eternities.  Because: as the sowing - so the harvest!"

"But Jesus!" - asks Nathan in horror - "have I not consecrated my whole life to Jehovah?  Have I not served Him from childhood and kept the Law and the Prophets as best I could?  And now all this is to be nothing?  Oh Jesus, then it would be better if I had become a pagan and a Baal-servant."

"And you would have fallen even deeper in your misery!" - answers Jesus. "For your ground still bore stalks, though without fruit!  But how would you feel if in the night and darkness you did not know where to go, where to come in, and around you there were only rocks and hard stones?  It is not yet too late.  You can still cultivate your soil anew in hope and faith, and we all want to help you.  Nathan!  Why don't you want to understand Me?  First and foremost, drop all fear and dread of us and think that we are your friends!"

"Jesus!  Jesus!  I don't understand You, I indeed feel Your love, but what should I do?   What is needed to restore peace and tranquility within me?"

"Dear Nathan, a parable shall give you your answer.  For this matter is too serious and depends solely on your strong will!  Behold, a father had three sons.  The eldest, gifted with great gifts of mind, delighted the world with his creations in art and science, and his fame reached almost to heaven.  And as his fame grew, so did his wealth.  But inwardly he was poor, for he had no true friend, and in hours of quiet solitude he felt terribly cold, for his heart longed for something else, and this was not granted to him.

The second son was a light-footed man; easy come, easy go!  Everything he did, succeeded - but his recklessness made it all disappear.  He was loved as long as he had means; but when he had nothing, he was lonely and remorse ate away at his heart.

The youngest, a quiet, sickly man, loved solitude.  The animals in the forest were his friends, the birds were his companions; and he preferred to suffer hunger himself rather than that his darlings should starve in winter.  Once children of the neighbors came to him, and he taught them wondrous things.  They learned from him not only to know nature and it's creatures, but also to love them!  But in winter, when they could not meet, the children greatly missed their teacher, their friend and benefactor.  This youngest son became happier and happier, in spite of suffering and discomfort, because he possessed the love of his fellow men; and this love became the strength and the great wealth of his heart!

So, dear Nathan, here you have the story of the three sons.  Live into it and learn which one you are like!"

Not only Nathan, but also the mother and brothers listened attentively; and so Mary said: "But Jesus, is the story already finished?  The end is still missing!"

"Certainly, you are right! But you shall find the end yourselves, since it is only a parable.”

From Jesus' Inner World

At that moment, little Leah entered the room and said: "Mother Mary, my mother asks if she can come to you, since she would like to hear a lot from you - and may I come too?"

Mary answered: Tell your mother, if her duty permits, she is welcome; and you, little Leah, may always come to us, for I love good children."

"Does Jesus also love children?"

"Ask Him yourself; there He sits with them at the table."

"Jesus, are you angry when I ask you something?"

"Oh no, my child!  I cannot be angry at all, because I love all people, including children!"

"Even the bad ones?"

"Yes, little Leah, even the wicked I love; since they usually do not know that they are wicked."

"Oh, then you are a strange man!  Mother always says: ‘Evil people are to be avoided.’"

"Yes, of course, your mother is right too!  But those you avoid, you can still love!  Now you do not understand this yet, but when you are older, you will learn to understand Me.  But now go, your mother is waiting for you."

Soon Ada came with Leah, and tears of gratitude flowed as she greeted Jesus: "Oh good man!  How we have misjudged You, and now You have made us debtors!"

"Not at all, dear Ada.  But now that you are here, we too have a request for you.  See, circumstances can arise that mother and I are not at home and are away for weeks or months; but no organizing hand, no housewife is in the house.  So sometimes My brothers, even if they are away from home, need female help from time to time.  Would you be willing to render this service to the house of Joseph?"

"But Jesus, how can You ask, since only love for love, only beneficence and goodness came from the Father Joseph!  And today I should forget?  Oh no!  Your love is like a sun, and for this love I have hungered and almost longed.  How beautiful it was when the father Joseph spoke of the mighty blessings of Jehovah and the guidance of the great prophets.  But you, Jesus, were not at home most of the time and missed much; I would like to know where you were and why you did not stay at home?"

"Dear neighbor Ada" - Jesus answers - "wanting to know everything - is not good!  But since Nathan also has a right to know some things about Me that often disturbed him, I want to show you all a piece of My inner struggle and fight.  See!  Most people know Me only as the very quiet, simple carpenter's son!  But since childhood, the urge for the Divine lived in Me, for that which gives the true, right impetus to My soul - to dwell there where 'the holiest of holies' is!  With inner, holy joy, I experienced how more and more deposits of lower things became noticeable on Me and in Me!  And recognizing this, I freed Myself from it, often only through the greatest efforts.  Yes, I recognized a tremendous 'opposition'  in Me, who wanted to place itself as separation between Me and the 'Holy Desired'.  A great, difficult question arose in me: To what extent am I actually committed to this lower, false and wrong?  But words or thoughts could not solve this question.  In order to free Myself from this scourge, from this drive into the lower, which threatened to overgrow everything higher, I also resorted to violent means!  Thus I often visited lonely regions and analyzed My being to the smallest detail.  Here I experienced miracles upon miracles and got enraptured into glories, which were so familiar to Me as if I had never been separated from them.

Another time I experienced "scum and hell", but remained immune to it as a result of the preceding serious battles in Me.  Another time I went to markets and dancing places, let everything that was 'world' and it's appendages have an effect on Me; but like a serene one, like one exalted above all this, I could remain untouched even here.  In the midst of sin and vice, I felt protected as by an armor that let nothing through!  Yes, consciously I climbed into the souls of the lost and corrupted, which revealed themselves to me like a great, great "world" - and have wandered through many a dark canyon and many a desert.  But there I got to know the longing, which wants to help and cannot yet!

This longing in Me became bigger and bigger.  More and more I escaped from My natural human being and now searched in My innermost being to what extent this is also obliged to work here helping and redeeming?  Then I looked at ‘My own I’ - and blessed joy went through My whole being.  ‘Who are You' - I call out to Him - 'Who makes Me so blessed?'

‘I am You!  And You are Me!’ - it sounded to Me, and every word is like holy music, is holy life and new, undreamt-of joy in Me. But again I had to fulfill My earthly duties as a man, as a brother and as a son.  And see, dear brothers, for many a word misunderstood by you, I would have preferred to say kindnesses to you, but it could not be.  For with glowing letters, the law was burned into Me, and thus My striving and endeavor was only for the fulfillment of this law in Me!  And now finally the great, long desired is reached: I and God are one!"

Mary asks anxiously: "Jesus, is this no madness for You?  If it were only delusion, your being connected with God?  Many already believed to be at the goal, but not even the right beginning was made!  For in life there is much wandering and too much confusion."

"Mary!  When will you be able to believe that it is so?  Should facts always speak first and convince you?  Only free, pure faith carries strength.  Everything else is of little value!"

"My Jesus, I did not want to doubt you!  You go Your way, whether we believe in You or not.  It will probably still happen to many Nazarenes in such a way, they will hear, see and nevertheless not be able to believe."

"Do not worry - for this, others will believe and will see the glory of God, just as I do!"

Little Leah also paid attention to every word that Jesus spoke, and it seemed as if she understood it too.  Then she went to Jesus and asked: "You, Jesus, it is still on my mind: How can You love the wicked? - when You have recognized evil as evil!  Mother is always afraid that we might become evil!"

"Leah!  Pay attention for once: I really love you, and you love Me too - don't you?  You believe this?"

"Yes, I believe you."

"But once you disobey, do you think I would no longer love you?"

"Well, You might not be so good to me anymore, since I'm no longer the Leah You love!"

"Yes, My child!  Remember for all time: Love all people - but not the human in them!  Love as much as you can and like - but never the evil and nasty!  Always remember: God has created you, but also all others!  God is good; and man received only good as a gift from God.  Evil, however, is always a part of evil, but must not be done - but must be overcome!  And only he who overcomes it, is a victor over evil!  Did you understand that?"

"Yes, my Jesus, I have heard and understood!  But yet I will avoid evil people, for they may rob me of my love for You!"

"Oh My child!  Come to My breast and think that I am your Father living in heaven!  But be silent when we big ones speak, for you are still small!"  Now little Leah nestles close to Jesus.  But He continues: "This child has a particularly keen mind and perceives things that are still far from many an adult, and for such children, double caution is necessary."

"Why this?" - asks Leah's mother.

"Because all those who have a great, mighty spirit from above, must not be transplanted so deeply into the animal and material, but into the spiritual existence.  Just as a tree, as it grows larger and older, always endeavors to bore it's roots deeper and wider into the soil and to become ever more resistant in order to be able to withstand all storms and dangers - so do we human beings. Therefore we want to be deeply rooted in the spiritual soil!  The deeper we immerse ourselves in the pure, true life of God, the more we acquire of it.  Only the indolent or the arrogant soon lie uprooted on the ground and lament that God should help them.  But God has arranged everything so wisely that each one must become the blacksmith of his own happiness!"

Jesus looks thoughtfully at Nathan - then He speaks further: "Nathan, do not look at Me so unbelievingly, because your inside is like a mirror, and your thoughts lie before Me like an open book.  If you would not feel as the beaten one, you would want to settle with Me now!

But I tell you, we have not come together for judging and settling, but to unite!  Become humble and small and learn from Me, then you are on the right way into your inner being!  Let only ‘serving God’ - be also your holy task!"

"Jesus, where did You get Your wisdom and strength?" - asks Nathan, almost horrified - “Surely it cannot be that wisdom, power, and reason are stored up in Your heart as one stores up grain or wine!  Why is there nothing in Moses or the other scriptures in how to gain this?"

"Nathan!  Because you sleep spiritually most of your life, as now Leah sleeps and dreams here.  I will tell you nothing further, since you shall find the truth for yourself."

Ada takes little Leah away from Jesus' lap, lays her on a resting bench and apologizes because of her child.

But Jesus says: "Ada, I always love children, and little Leah especially loves Me, so do not worry about her, but you can prepare lunch together with Mary.  But we, dear brothers - and you Nathan - want to go to the hill; in two hours we will be back!"

Joel says: "Brother, what will people say of us, that we do no day's work today!"

"Be at peace, Joel!  That not much good is spoken of us, is known; but we will not punish them for that.  And then, after all, Nathan is in our midst.  So do not worry!  Do not look at people's talk and actions, but show them 'your awakened inner spirit' - and they will fall silent!"

Consecration on the hill

Now they went to the hill and made themselves comfortable there.  Jesus remarked: "Nathan, you must be tired from your journey.  Rest now, for in order to take up great and mighty thoughts, one must be rested.  But I do not become tired if I do not want to, and yet yesterday and also today I did not sleep, but remained awake.  It is the Spirit within Me that keeps Me awake.

Dear brothers!  Now listen to what I have to say to you here: I now leave you and go 'My way'!  You know that the Savior has been longed for since Noah; since Abraham - directly expected!  The Lord God created possibilities that the Spirit from God should be the all-controlling and also the executing in every human being's inside.  But no-one has ever succeeded in this.  Great things have been achieved by individuals, and people have experienced blessings upon blessings, but it has not become of lasting value.  Now I have succeeded in all the years that you have known Me: to make everything of the flesh and soul subservient to the Spirit!  I now create in the pure Spirit of God a work of eternal value, and all people and all beings will benefit from it!

You, brother Joel, are the heir of father Joseph; but all people - also you - are then My heirs!  What I leave to mankind, will hardly be recognized, unless the trouble comes, the great, Mighty one, which seizes all humans, and finally brings them, after long, laborious aberrations, so far to turn back from their worldly thinking and doing and to believe the spiritual - which I want to show them and give them - and then to follow Me!"

"Dear Jesus" - says Nathan, reflecting - "You were my problem child in Nazareth.  All bowed to the law and the Words of God, only you went your own way.  But now I have to believe you, because you force me to, since I cannot refute you!  But I, as a priest, now ask You, Jesus, as a man - the man: 'Are You also not mistaken?'  Are You so convinced of Your ideas that You could put Your life on the line?  Behold, sometimes one is overcome with such inward strength and fullness of life that one thinks one is a giant; but the next day - oh how small and despondent one is again!"

"Dear Nathan!  Your speech is certainly good and true for some, but it is not applicable to Me.  For I have tested Myself through and through and in the next weeks I will undertake My last tests.  For My flesh is conquered, and in My soul, everything is spiritualized!  But proofs are still to be given to the great, mighty dark ones in the hereafter!  For there, too, I cast My rays of life.  Also the inhabitants in the great spirit-kingdom shall be given an opportunity to see what you see.  All heavens are open!  Through the spaces of infinity, sounds a singing and a rejoicing!  For on this earth God now reveals Himself - as the Holy Love!'  - and wills that all - all - be helped."

It is silent around Jesus.  No-one dares to speak a word; even Nathan is overcome.  And in this silence, an inner consecration takes place.

Then Jesus speaks: "Brothers!  In the Spirit of Eternal Divine Love, I thank you, for you have helped Me up to this point by indulging Me.  But in this hour I put a request, a great urgent one, to your heart, and that is: ‘Do not become proud and arrogant when you hear miracles and deeds from your brother Jesus!  For mighty things will happen!  And the temple will also not watch calmly, if I surely will convince the best [people] to My life-teaching.  Remain humble, remain small and silent, but always connect more intimately with the Spirit in Me.  For this Spirit is God from eternity to eternity!

Then you are blessed not only for now, but for eternities!  You are not blessed because I am and was your brother - oh no, but because the blessing comes only from God, Who now also wants to dwell and shall dwell in you!  From now on, all people are My brothers, if they wrestle and fight for the Spirit that lives in Me.  And this is called: Love - Love - Love!  From now on, there is no more local heaven.  Because everything becomes heaven, where this Spirit of Divine love is the basis of life!!!

From now on there are no more cursed and damned; for Divine Love is mercy and only mercy!  From now on, from every human heart, a way is paved to the heart of God and shall be a blessing for all, for everyone.  But if someone does not go this way of the heart - does not want to go - he has himself to blame if he cannot find heaven in himself.  For, brothers, listen: In the beginning was the eternal Word, who called all things into existence by his: ‘Let there be!’  This Word was God Himself!  And this Word has now come to life in Me.  So alive, that I ceased to be something to My own self!  And what I have now become, I have become through this living Word of God!"

"Brother Jesus" - says Joel - "You make us dumb by Your speeches!  You tell us to be ready when You depart from us.  Why do You not say: 'Come, go with Me; for you have the most right to follow Me!'  How many glories we have already experienced through You, and that we love You, this You know better than we want to say."

"Dear Joel, have you forgotten that we can never, ever part?  What would be the use of your going along, if it remained only external?  Certainly, I would not reject anyone; but My advice is: 'Stay in Nazareth, and become a light in these dark walls!  And give love and a right light to all people'.  This is My wish for you in this hour.  But now let us go home - for Mother has the meal ready; and you, Nathan, are our guest!"

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Table of Contents

1.  Jesus and Nathan 4

2.  Joseph in the beyond 9

3.  Nathan as friend 10

4.  Jesus as Healer and Friend of children 12

5.  Gabriel’s message 15

6.  The inner call 17

7.  Jesus announces His departure 18

8.  Nathan looks into his inner world 19

9.  From Jesus' Inner World 21

10.  Consecration on the hill 25